decisions, decisions

the many choices which daily appear before us have focused our attention more on the how than upon the why.

the beginning and the end

there is no beginning without a consequent and accompanying end. nevertheless, more stress is placed on debate over origin than about the cataclysmic end. i believe that such debate ought to be postponed  until after the final apocalyptic moment. then one may presume (with little or no difficulty, based on the source of said moment) how exactly we began to be. that is, either with the design of a master or with the design of chance.

blessed are the blind

it has often been said that one ought to look before one is to leap. would this not more often turn one away from the edge of greatness by revealing the hardshipsone will face? the great men have ever blinded themselves and in so doing have attained their greatness.

cost-benefit analysis

if you lose more than you gain, it simply is not worth it.

indicative and subjunctive pathways

what will or will not be – once one path is begun, the other path ceases to exist. what would or would not be – at the nexus of two different paths, the ends of which may only be dimly perceived.

the three genii

there are three basic types of genius. one being that which is brilliant enough to play the fool, another being brilliant enough to be a fool, and the latter being above foolishness and wisdom altogether.

hidden brilliance

the evidence of brilliance – it can only be dimly perceived for the depth of the soul in which it resides. it is precisely because another cannot see the brilliance that one possesses that this other may know for sure that this same one is brilliant. he has internalized it. everyone possesses some measure of brilliance, for none can throw it away, and when one tries to throw it from himself and finds that he cannot, he then throws it into himself. he then quite properly forgets that he possesses brilliance. when another (not seeing any brilliance) offers this one a portion of his, he replies ‘i had something like that once but i rid myself of it for it did me no good’. this other would either relate it to others or relate it to himself had he given brilliance to this one. brilliance is only brilliant if it is in it’s native position and obscured by irrecognition.

read the gravestone

a moment ought not be resurrected but rather must only be remembered and cherished.

nosce te ipsum

‘know thyself.’

‘how? i am hardly able to know others, what would make me think i can know myself?’

‘in desiring to know different entities, you must have found that the one least understood is thyself.’

‘indeed, i have ever found the ego to be unpredictable by the ego.’

exorcism of myself

a ghost is haunting me and this is what i fear – the complete and total exorcism of myself, my spirit and the absolute and entire inorcism of my self, his spirit. for it is he that haunts me – the life in death, the one eternal. he wants me, desires my body as his residence. i am running from life.my body is in a state of rebellion in it’s movement toward carnality. my mind is in a state of rebellion in it’s espousal of lust. my soul has ever been in a state of rebellion against the God who is there. if this be so, what may recuperate my trichotomous nature; and further, what exactly am i rebelling against? since all of myself is in a state of rebellion, i must be rebelling against my self, the ghost that ever haunts me. christ has offered to me a path out of this darkness; in this i find my great joy and sorrow.