apathy – the soul killer

apathy – i do not care and yet i still feel. apathy – initiated by the mind, repulsive to the soul, and retained by the flesh. apathy – i feel it within me, clawing away at the lining of my existentiality. apathy – that monster. apathy – the soul killer. apathy – i do not care what happens to me. i still am able to feel very deeply, to the point of immotion - but i do not care. love is the pathway out of this facade of living. i must love, i can do naught else. i am brought to the point of love from the brink of death. this is not death of the flesh, or even of the mind, but more dangerously is death of the soul. i was given life through the agency of love – this is my great joy and sorrow.